Not easy

this teddy bear has been sitting on my table for a long times.
My sister tried to lay him down, claimed he is tired everyday keep the same pose.
:O

After few days i make him sitting pose again.
Because he just look nice when he sits.

xxx xxx xxx

Things are turning in mess now. I have to solve it in a short time.
My fault to let it getting worse, can't blame.
So time for me to grow. Never think in easy way, this is real world.
Don't be naive anymore, girl.

2 months left and 2011 is around the corner. Time never wait for us until we realize it passed by silently. I hate year end for certain reason but here comes more and more celebrations and festivals. Peoples love celebrations and parties aren't we? :) So no complains. I just wish to live it better than every past years.

2 months, really short but long enough to clean up some plans in year's planning. And then the following comes up. And then set the familiar targets again due to failure of past year. Shit. Life becomes such a worst cycle for me. Opps, no negative issues girl. Stay optimistic but not over.

2 months. I want to make it a perfect ending, alright, ain't perfect but at least a memorable year end. It's the conclude of 12 months, of a year, when i am 22. Hell yea i wish to leave it as a happiness memory.

Been dull for sometimes. Losing confidence, can't help, I have to build it all up, by all my own. So grateful and appreciate for courage from friends. And perhaps only stress from family :( How i gonna break all these gaps between us?

No idea. *massive sigh*

So what. November is still to fill up. Never give up before it. Oh yea, i had a sweet dream for last night. And definitely i will hope for the dream comes true, take action to make it real ;)


P.S: When you found you are nothing for him, get something back from other way. The 'something' must be big enough to cover all. And you know you will be glad for that one day, soon.